phew.. did cip today man!! 3 hrs.. for Metta.. it's the rehab centre i got attached to after my sec2 Youth Voluntary Involvement Programme (YVIP).. JS is in it too.. as in the camp, cos different groups were attached to different homes.. some old folks, some orphanages.. it was a 2-week attachment at Tampines Metta.. had a real gd experience with the folks there.. altho i had quite some communication problems.. very few folks could speak english. oh yea, i was like thinking, folks before our time can speak english??? haha. lesson learnt: dont underestimate old folks. and most of them were lonely cos their children "dumped" them there.. one of the grannies told me that. ok, soooo, 2 of my metta frens and i went tiringly around Toa Payoh Hub to hunt for ppl to buy Metta's hand-made bear keychains.. sheesh. u might think 3hrs is easy shit but it's NOT. it's worse than flag day.. we got a big plastic bag of bears each, 5 different colours: light pink, brown, purple, orange and yellow. and after 3hrs our tins were nowhere near quarter-full.. talk abt demoralising. the usual stuff u get when u ask ppl whether they wanna "adopt a bear for only $2", like, treat u as if u're transparent, give u $0.20 and expect to get a bear (the naive children did).. and u could see all those disappointed faces of those kids who sooo wanted the bear but bcos of their stingy giam-to-the-core parents they couldnt.. ONLY FOR $2!! and they're hand-made k! we were so demoralised and tired that we couldnt wait for 3hrs to be up.. we even did a countdown.. haha. spastic, but under those circumstances, who wouldnt?! however, the only consolation was that i met Auyong, Shamu and Weiling at the hub! made them buy a bear each.. ouch. really sorry abt it, but i was really desperate for someone to buy the bears! ya, and tried to persuade Jem, Greg and Aileen to buy the bears cos they were there too! i wish i had bumped into more frens.. then they'd hate me for making them buy bears.. wahaha..

i always wonder, are parents always bias against girls? like everything my bro does is condoned and mine isnt?!?! i'm like the fucking older one here! oh, so that means he can hog the com without getting grounded.. he can bathe as long as he likes, even longer than me.. no curfew at all at sec3, while during my time it was so different.. have the same allowance as me when he's a bloody 3 yrs younger!! i demand an explanation and a compensation! in sec3 i only got like $5/6 everyday.. now my bro get $10. bloody hell. i totally had the misconception that my parents were non-bias and treated both of us equally. damn it man. so now i have to be the stupid little angel and he can go be the gunman.

Life is unfair. Comment.

ya, so does that mean i'll be screamed at when i tell my parents i'm going Embassy this coming sat? sure thing. first thing dat happens the moment i mouth p-a-r-t-y my eardrums'll burst. i'll see my mood. it's 2C1, stupid angel or rebel-gurl. hmph.